Lana MarieAddiction - Poem
July 5th 2007 09:59
Addiction –
Addiction I hold; Evil withdrawals I for now withhold,
The tenderness and care I wish to feel,
Is warm, locked tight and sealed.
The loneliness deep inside my heart,
Is gone for now its not so dark.
The quietness inside my voice,
Is loud and over-filled with an un-describable confidence.
If only it lasted more the one night,
This life I am living would not be so hard to fight.
“What goes up must come down”
The tenderness and care, I felt so warm
Has now banished once again. I’m torn
The light I saw, has turned to the blackest black
Even the confidence I felt that night,
Has gone and left me out of sight.
I’m all alone and back at the start.
This life is spinning around to fast,
The way I am going, I’m positive I will not last.
From far, from close, even the blind can see,
How out of control this life has left me.
I tried again last night,
I told myself that I could change and this will be the last time,
I needed to feel the warmness I felt inside before.
This time it did not work, I got so mad
It wasn’t until later; I realized I should have felt glad.
The guilt kept me going, until I was there,
Only to fall once more, again into this cycle,
That’s much to hard to brake or to bare.
- Lana Marie
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Comment by Ash
Australian Traveller
Flashes of memories
A great piece - thank you for sharing.
There is nowhere more lonely than that black hole - you are often left wondering where the bottom is that will stop you from falling.
How wonderful that you have a new life on the way. It really seems to have transformed your life - what a blessing!
ash
Comment by Lana Marie
Youth Parenting
Thanks for the lovely comment. I was a bit hesitant to post that one. The baby has already turned my life completely around! But it definitely has been for the better. It’s still a little hard to adjust to sometimes, but I am grateful. Thanks Again – Lana Marie